Nothing is wrong, I am the healthiest and happiest ( for the most part) I have ever been, and although I’ve reinvented and rediscovered who I am this past year, the real soul searching begins now. Adjusting and settling is the hardest part of recovery, and part of life. It is human nature to try and build on our foundations and be more. And in some instances, we even try to be less, to tuck ourselves away in the shadows. The middle ground is always the hardest part.
But it will be worth it

I love you all and warm hugs and wishes are being sent your way!

P.S.–Don’t be surprised if I video it up at some point

I haven’t shared with anyone my thoughts on my decision, but I have come to the conclusion that I can’t blog right now. It is NOT because I don’t love you all, because I dooo!!! I just have zero time to! Which, in my eyes, is a GREAT thing.

I have school, work and I am getting back in to yoga for the sake of my sanity. The thought of just doing strictly video posts crossed my mind because it’s a lot speedier and I can just talk and not worry about writing, which is a heck of a lot easier for muah, but who knows. MAYBE I will do that, maybe not, but I won’t be posting.
Also, my faith has been in limbo for a couple months now. Daily distractions and other “things” I have to do have been getting in the way of the one thing in this life that REALLY matters. I need to focus and push forward and get back to where I was because I WANT to and I am ready. I would not be here today if it weren’t for my faith in God, so who am I to turn my back on Him when He pulled me up from the slums I put myself through? I am ready to be all I can be, for Him and for myself.

BUT, it doesn’t mean I won’t be reading, because let’s be honest, I cannot resist stalking all of you

Looking back, my blog has served as a reminder, both good and bad, of who I used to be. I’m SO thankful I have some things documented so I can use it as a learning tool. I have met THE MOST amazing people through this, and I am def not willing to let that go, hence the reason I am reading and not writing.

Thank you for the support, thank you for the laughs, and thank you for just “being”

-KATH

Facebook-friend request and a couple random things, boring.
AOL-watched the 5 top clips of the week–http://television.aol.com/tvtop5/in-the-hot-seat-the-view/40143127001/BOW?icid=main|hp-laptop|dl7|link3|http%3A%2F%2Ftelevision.aol.com%2Ftvtop5%2Fin-the-hot-seat-the-view%2F40143127001%2FBOW
WordPress-life lessons & math lessons
YouTube- please observe and post what you think

PERSONALLY, I was cracking up! The kids are just adorable, but after viewing some of the comments below, I could see where some controversy comes in. “Testing” a theory on children. Some comments showed such disdain for putting a child through this, but seriously, marshmellows?  I don’t see this is scarring a kid in any way shape or form. It is interesting though to see how much self control one person has when faced with having to enforce it, no?

The best part about running/yoga/a busy work week is the rest day that follows sometimes, and today is one of those days! I will be lounging, eating, maybe do some light yoga or stretching, and then work tonight. Love it.

Have a lovely Saturday!

1.) That I am up at 2 am. I could try to sleep, but heck I already did that and the sandman paid no mind to me

2.) The VMA’s. NOW, I’m sure the majority of you checked it out, but if not, google, youtube, or perezhilton that shiz to see the whole Kanye drama, Lady GaGA performance and New Moon trailor.
–Kanye- you’re a big douche bag
–Lady Gaga- I like your music, it’s great to run to, but you my dear, are OFF YOUR ROCKER! To some, your performance may be portrayed as art, but to me, you are downright odd and left me in utter confusion
–New Moon-I think I stopped breathing for the 2 minutes or so that they previewed the clip. CANNOT wait.

everything can be found here for the most part

3.)That my mother has a facebook. She has no clue how to use it, but I think she likes feeling more youthful and telling her friends she has a facebook love you Ma!

4.)The amount of this that I ate today:

I am not going to share an amount of what I ate, but just know it was a heck of a lot more than the suggested serving. It’s def. delicious and addicting, and after about my 124th spoonful, I decided to exercise some self control. Guilty? A little bit, but it was SO good, even though the 342874 grams of sugar are what’s keeping me awake right now, but I won’t tell if you don’t

Have a great start to the week everyone, and let me know what you think about the VMA’s! I am dying to hear other’s thoughts on it!

Going along with the majority of the blog world, I also thought back to 2001 on this very day at what was happening to our country. I didn’t understand what was happening ( I was in 6th grade), but I knew it was going to impact the rest of the day/week/month, but little did I know it would change HISTORY.
I will never forget that day, how could you?

I’m going to settle in and read some magssss and hit the hay
 

NIGHT!

LOVE jennnnnn!

OK, rant over. Now there is a point behind my negativity and complaints. After all was said and done, I turned the day around, rocked out with my C**K out on my Anatomy/Physiology test, cleaned and did laundry, took care of some personal schtuff such as painting the tootsies and shaving the bod after I partook in some pilates. The day is almost done, and I am ready for the new day tomorrow, bring on 9.10.09

white and black nail polish, i can never decide ugh. went with white as you can tell

snack

I don’t quite know what to call this snack. But the method was this:
–graham cracker layer
–cooked apple sprinkled with truvia, salt and cinnamon
–almond milk poured a bit over top
–crumbled graham and cinnamon again
–MICROWAVED for 45 seconds.
^^SO good. mmmm

Now it’s time to finish up my trash tv wednesday. America’s Next Top Model is done…Amber anyone??? WHAT a looooney toon! Now it’s time fooo the REAL(totally fake) WORLD FINALLEEEE!

Goodnight friends

But just because I have been a busy bee, doesn’t mean I have turned my back on some things near and dear to my heart

homeboy's for SURE in the dog house!

I went to bed with a run in the morning in the park being the first thing on my to do list for today, but I awoke to my mind and body telling me to stay in bed and just relax, SO that is what I am doing.
I have a study session at 4:30 for anatomy and physiology with my class. Since we don’t HAVE classes today, we are all meeting with our teacher at Barnes and Nobles. She’s an AWESOME teacher, thank goodness. She would rather just be called her first name, in shortened nick name form none the less, as opposed to “Professor” or “Dr”, I just LOVE laid back people like that, makes learning a liiiittle bit easier knowing the teach. doesn’t put themselves on a pedestal 100% of the time.

& as for tonight, my best chica and I are going to Bed Bath and Beyond, or wherever our travels take us, to get some window treatments and start decorating my bungalow
Have a lovely rest of the day and I shall return, sooner rather than later hopefully, with pictures of what I have done thus far to my place in comparison to the other day!

So far today:
-Went for a run/walk and talked with God. Blasted some Christian tunes and I was set.
-Shaved for the first time in a week
-Had oats with Justins Maple AB
-Smiled
^^All running on 5 hours of total sleep due to err, bathroom issues and restlessness.

Gotta jet, time to write an essay on “The Cask of Amontillado” by Mr E.A. Poe. Anyone else get creeped out by his writings? bleck

BYE!

ANYWHO, I have a buttload of pictures, so you might as well grab a snack, a blanket(seeing as it IS september and the temperature is in the 60′s, whaa??!) and hunker down all! Enjoy, and please don’t judge my lack of furniture and hominess
I now present to you, the poor womans brand spankin’ new apartment:

nature=my only friend. and yes, i am one of "those" people that take up to spots in an empty parking lot due to laziness and not wanting people to hit my whip

found this while walking. i have a soft spot for rasta

<3

and now, THE apartment:

looking down the row of complex buildings

welcome! please leave yo shoes at the door! works flats, running sneaks, rainbow sandals=sums up my life

j--check the purse lol

kitchen 1

kitchen 2

over the sink shot of living area

reverse shot of kitchen. yes, i bought the table without the chairs, i got too nervous to dish out the money for 4 chairs. next week( fingers and toes crossed)

yoga mat love

ottoman:$60 at Big Lots. pillows:marshalls, blanket:target

i put together this bamboo cabinet. it was actually VERY heavy durable for being only $30 at unclaimed freight.

and alas, the bedroom where the magic DEFINITELY happens

uhh yeah just realized now i didn't tuck my clothes all the way in :-/

work area. kinda messy and not organized yet

again. minus the computer which is in the living room area

walk in closet. everything color coordinated.

edward and bella hiding behind the door

now, take a step back out of the room and enter le lavatory

bathroom 2

bathroom 3

bathroom 4: rasta again, even though my camera sucks big ones and you can't tell the TRUE color

giraffe statue: $5 at Target. i LOVE him, adorable right?

Haven’t been taking any foodie pictures, BUT check what I tried:

Sludge oats. mmmm so good

and that’s ALLLLL folks!
I will save life lessons and ramblings for another post because 1.) I am super tired at staring at the computer, 2.) I’m sure you are too and 3.) I need to focus on Real World and my tummy and growling for some good eatzzzz
Goodnight love bugs!

garbage bags full of clothes, theres more to be packed yet

special twilight mag, books, journals and princeton EDU notebook extracted from under the bed. all going with to the apartment

empty drawers

art collection notebook from high school

 I don’t have much time to post but packing is going well, courses have been selected and shopping is DEFINITELY being done.
I got an email from my mommabear today containing some uhh photos. Unsure if I should be sharing these vulgar pictures, but you be the judge.

july 4th 1991? 1992? not sure. messy munching on corn=priceless. Don't judge my dad and his love for short shorts hahaha

Pops and I

I like to believe that I had an influence on the flower/ruffle trendain't no shame

and if those pictures weren’t enough to entertain you for the night, behold…

ain't no shame..ok maybe a little

time to go socialize! it’s the boys last night out on the town before he goes to school up at Penn State, so a parttayyy is in order to bid him farewell.

HAVE A WONDERFUL NIGHT!